We all do things we shouldn't. For example, one might eat fast food when they know it's unhealthy. Ever check your ex's Instagram page one too many times? Say yes, when you should say no? Sometimes is obvious and sometimes it's not. How about your body?
Do you Edit your social media pictures to present a "better" version of you? Spend a good amount of time focused on defects on your body? Spend an inordinate amount of time covering up parts of yourself or spending time and money to change them? Does your anxiety around your body presentation dictate how you spend your time or enjoy life?
While not applicable in every situation, this obsession can often be categorized as, or lead to Body dysmorphic disorder.
Here's the technical description of BDD: "Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is a form of body image distortion that causes anxiety over how a person appears to others. Other disorders that are commonly paired with BDD include social anxiety, eating disorders, depression, PTSD, substance abuse and OCD. Symptoms of BDD include frequent body checking or weighing, dieting, ritualistic behaviors, cosmetic or plastic surgeries, social isolation and problems maintaining relationships." (https://draxe.com/body-dysmorphic-disorder/amp/)
In basic terms, Body dysmorphic disorder is a mental disorder in which you can't stop thinking about one or more perceived defects or flaws in your appearance -- a flaw that, to others, is either minor or not observable. But you may feel so ashamed and anxious that you may avoid many social situations.
When you have body dysmorphic disorder, you intensely obsess over your appearance and body image, repeatedly checking the mirror, grooming or seeking reassurance, (or reloading your social media pages) repeatedly, sometimes for many hours each day.
Your perceived flaw and the repetitive behaviors cause you significant distress and impact your ability to function in your daily life.
Today it is highly common to feel the need to edit, or even morph our body image just achieve gratification from the amount of "likes" we virtually or emotionally receive.
This is further compounded by the way that our society dictates the norms with media playing a central role in influencing today's youth and adults. Unrealistic expectations have been established as people compare themselves to the "models" in the magazines, TV or on Instagram and other social media. Despite the fact that the images you see on TV, in the magazines or on Facebook/Instagram/twitter are either HIGHLY edited or something temporary, we still respond.
Treatment of body dysmorphic disorder may include cognitive behavioral therapy, medication, intensive treatment, and other therapeutic interventions.
You have no one to try and impress but yourself. You weren't born thinking you were anything less than anyone else. So try to regain that mentality and never forget it. You are perfect in every way.